F to the U to the C to the FUCKING K

"What The FUCK?!"

A loud shimmering FUCK runs through my veins when I met my program advisor yesterday. The worst case scenario has come and yeah, the very famous phrase "You can't run from your problems" just came true for me and it is not what I thought would happened but it would probably come soon and it is shits. Serious shit, its shitty shit shit. DAMN la, I never wanted to face this fucking subject here, I FUCKING HATE THE LECTURER!

This subject, in which I guess I can cope, IF and ONLY IF Inti can find a better replacement for the lecturer who had thought me during my stupid second semester. Someone who can TEACH and not brag about himself. 

"Damn easy" is his famous catch phrase and he teaches using NO textbook. And yes, he thinks he is a MASTER JEDI of JAVA. Maybe he is, and I don't fucking care but he treats and teach as if the students are already capable of writing codes, understanding those fucking algebra, fucking logic and fucking program. 

Now it seems my last semester here would be another struggle and hell yeah I've been struggling since my horror horrendous first semester. 

Complaining won't do much but who cares, people complain all the time. I know that in the end, I just have to do it. (Nike inspires me a lot with their famous thing, "Just Do It") But somehow I hate that fact, I hate going to have to face that lecturer again and this time, for 4 fucking months! *The last time, when I could not drop the subject, I dropped it with my own style, skip the class for 2 and a half months, until the finals in which I didn't attempt as well cause I have no fucking idea of what i learnt.*

"What the FUCK?!"

That's what i shouted in my heart as I left CAE. 

Okay

A chapter closed, not looking back, I am moving forward, too darn tired to think about it. -and that's it-

Current agenda - Figuring a way to get a DSLR Camera

Current location - Taiping

Current mood - Happy ( its a lie )

Current situation - Ade makan-makan kat luar tapi aku malas nak keluar

Current song - appreciating the rock song of all time, Sweet Child Of Mine by GnR. 

Current series - damn dah habes tgk season 4 HIMYM, need to download season 5.

CRAP

C is really is for Crap


My God damn 2 months of hard work just didn't payoff as much as i would have liked.  I know i should be thankful but somehow I'm just to frustrated and fucking disappointed with myself.


Everything seems Crap to me right now even though Hujan's performance yesterday was a blast.


Dem! dem! DEM! demmm!

Hafiz's House

I'm back in Inti. 


Tomorrow, me and my college mates (namely the SAM students and a few AUP students, all guys...bummer, hahhaa) will make a trip to Melaka. A state full of history, haih. 


But what the heck, this 2 months holiday would be super boring if i don't go out and do stuff. Plus, Husna let me borrow her DSLR, yay! hahaha, sayang kaw :D

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Today we went to Hafiz's house in Kuang. I found out that his house was so near to mine, damn i should've just stayed home and let them pick me up, haha. But whatever. Had fun though and the food was great. I was starving while we were on our way and to get to eat was like a big relieve! hahaha, joking ( pikir la byk lagi manusia x dpt makan huhu )

Well, we hang out just for a while and then we head back to Inti. The journey to and from took most of our time for today.

I guess thats all. Later. 

tetapi hati ku

selalu meninggikan mu

terlalu meninggikan mu

selalu meninggikan mu

kau buat ku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi

kau buat ku merasakan yang tlah terjadi

semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati

semua yang terhenti tanpa ku sedari

kau hancur hatiku hancurkan lagi

kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihat mu

kau terangi jiwa ku kau redupkan lagi

kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihat mu

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Z00

National Z00 


Yeah, me and my college mates, Salah, Ain, Afe, Nik and Anne went to the National Z00 today to witness the creatures of the earth ( ayat extravagant, padahal biase je kot ) 

Since the finals, my life has a been a bit dull even though i enrolled in drum classes and have errants to do every now and then. My friends here in SA are still having their final exams and that leaves me stuck in this house. And I'm freaking alone at home most of the time. The only things that occupy me are my guitars, my drum sticks and my trusty laptop and of course the TV ( tgk bola je pn).  


I don't know who's idea was it to go to the Z00 but i was delighted to join them.  I can honestly tell you that i don't see the Z00 as a favorite but when you are with your friends, everything seems fun and enjoyable. :) Salah brought along his compact camera so i took the chance to try it out and snap some pictures. It was totally cool and i dread that i couldn't t explore more because the battery was dead halfway through the 'messed up' jungle we call Z00. 

p/s: will upload some of the pictures that i took

After that, we went to Mid Valley ( i know...boringggg, ngahhaha ). But who cares, as long as I'm having fun hanging out with my friends :D 

The initial plan was to watch a movie but we ended up strolling around instead. ( Btw, i bought a new t-shirt, yeah! Been wanting a new t-shirt and I'm glad that i bought it, no regrets hahaha. ) We ate at the food court and after that we stroll some more. In the end, we had dough nuts ( tak ingat name kedai :P ) but i took mine home because i had no mood to eat at the time. I was freaking sleepy.   

After a nice day out, we parted ways. I went home alone because everyone lives far from my house. It makes me think that, after a fun day out, I'm back to square one, being alone again. And it made me realize more about my family. The ones who will always be there and support me and help me, are my family. 

So, i guess this is just a friendly reminder to me and to all of us, appreciate our family and cherish the moments you have with your family.

It' getting boring by the sea

leave your parcel at the front door and
run away like you did before
blisters
blisters
blisters

let's consider a change of scenery
it's getting boring by the sea
pictures
pictures
pictures

oh no, no no no no
i can't escape anything in this town
knock yourself out
oh no, no no no no
i can't escape anything in this town
knock yourself out

such a harsh town
yet so easily
it's never been much
in front of me

keep quiet
keep quiet
keep quiet

let's consider a change of scenery
it's getting boring by the sea
pictures
pictures
pictures

oh no, no no no no
i can't escape anything in this town
knock yourself out
oh no, no no no no
i can't escape anything in this town
knock yourself out

oh no, no no no no
i can't escape anything in this town
knock yourself out
oh no, no no no no
i can't escape anything in this town
knock yourself out

anything in this town
(can't escape) anything in this town
(can't escape) anything in this town
(can't escape) anything in this town

leave your parcel at the front door and
run away like you did before
blisters
blisters
blisters

let's consider a change of scenery
it's getting boring by the sea
pictures
pictures
pictures

by Blood Red Shoes